DIARY 23 - WORRY & FLURRY

Addendum to Diary entry No22. I can see how the combined emphasis of 'there's somthing I should be doing, but I'm not doing it yet' and 'I have wasted my life', have fed into restlessness and anxiety. These have always my major hindrances in meditation and life. This is why 'Just Sitting' became such a beneficial meditation practice, because all that working in mindfulness and metta just led me to strive too hard. Striving too hard in life has brought me to where I am now. It's proved more effective to stay in the moment and cultivate a sense of my present experience, and not submit to being motivated by a desire to be somewhere else, or be something different.