Monday, January 06, 2025

SHERINGHAM DIARY No 122 - The Pernicious Arrival of Slimy Goop


 After a couple of years of forgetting, we finally had our chimney cleaned. Hence we have been enjoying the intimacy of a real fire over the Winterval. I have had a lot of wood off cuts to burn, so there has been much rifling through shelves and bins in my workshop. Come the Spring I want to have an almighty clean up and chuck out in my workshop. By the end of which I'm hoping it will be less congested with a much simpler layout. In the meantime I've been indulging in a bit of therapeutic arson.


I have not been in my workshop much this year, for the obvious reason. All of which has meant I was quite surprised recently to discover a rat was in the process of setting up its winter home. Every time I opened the workshop door I saw it, fleeting in a relaxed scurry disappearing into the eaves. Its nonchalance, made it all the more alarming. I could see where it was getting in, so I bought a small bag of ready made cement and blocked up all visible points of entry. It appeared to be nesting between the eaves and troughing, venturing into the workshop to use it as its appointed poo and pee palace. Rats, they are such fastidious creatures.

Next year I'm planning to step back a bit more from Cottonwood Home. I'll continue being Hubby's general pattern cutter, but reduce what I personally make. I want to concentrate more time on developing an art practice. I'd like to work at breaking a few personal conventions my creativity has got set in. As it is, the progress of osteo-arthritic inflammation in my hand joints has meant I can no longer execute work requiring fine brush detail. So I've been forced by this handicap to become looser and less controlling of my finish in execution.

A recent small experiment

Another One

All of which is I believe is good. I'm also moving away from using gouache, which has been my chosen medium for decades, and gradually getting to grips with the possibilities of acrylic paint. All of which means there's been a need to improve the quality and colour range of acrylics I have. I've acquired lots of student grade acrylics over the years, which are not that great once you actually start to work with them. Unfortunately with artist materials the cheaper they are, the less you'll be able to do with them. Quite often when folk say they don't get on with a particular artist medium, paint quality is often, in my experience, a major factor.  So I'm in the process of upgrading mine. There have been Christmas present requests for particular Liquitex colours. Its many years since I ran my own art shop. I was I thought, used to how expensive artists quality paints are. However, its nearly thirty years since I had my shop in Diss, and prices have inevitably dramatically risen. Some quite basic colours are now over twenty quid a tube, which is phew, wipes brow of sweat and hyperventilates. 

recent purchases

Christmas has been spent at home with Hubby. We've tried this year to reduce the heart unhealthy quality of some aspects of Christmas food consumption. Pudding and cake this year were the smallest we could buy. Reducing salt and fat content whenever we could. All of which I think we did quite well with.. Just before Christmas the car sprang a dramatic coolant leak, so went into the garage for its remedy. We didn't really need it over the Christmas break, picking it up from Holt the day after Boxing Day. Thankfully it wasn't too expensive a repair

Holkham Church in the mist

So we were able to go to Holkham Hall for a walk on the Saturday. We were wandering in the mist and dank fog that hung over the country during Christmas. It was dam cold, but bracing shall we say. The fog so thick buildings and churches were not visible until you were almost upon them. The North Norfolk coast has a particular evocative quality when shrouded in mist. It reminds you of the creepy atmosphere of a M R James ghost story, shadowy and ethereal.

I also start out the coming New Year with a replenished book stack, which should see me through to the Spring. My early morning routine I've changed recently. I'm trying to read more, and view You Tube less. Currently I'm reading a poem by David Whyte, and a short chapter from his book Consolations, everyday. After meditating I usually write in my Gratitude Journal, which I'm finding particularly beneficial. I've also set a time limit on my smart phone use of two hours a day, which I am finding is a good discipline.  


After celebrating New Year in Nottingham, we decided, on the spur of the moment to come back via Lincoln. To break the journey home, but also to check out what new fabrics Fat Quarter had. We came away with three which we are keen to try this spring in our craft business, a couple of mid century modern designs and a seaweed inspired pattern called Tides. I love the Cathedral Quarter of Lincoln. Its the only city I know whose retail hierarchy is banded according to its topography. Top end retail and tourist perch on the escarpment around the cathedral, national chains at the bottom of the escarpment, beyond the railway bridge nail bars, tanning salons, Asian supermarkets and more scruffy and dubious looking tertiary retail outfits. 

This time we didn't venture far, only half way down Steep hill. I didn't want to push my heart never mind my luck, by doing more. Since our return we have been trying to chill out, in full knowledge that at the beginning of next week we will need to start pulling out self assessment tax together. It is one of those time consuming but essential tasks we spend a large part of January sorting out. 


Whilst in Nottingham I picked up one humdinger of a cold, which was well on the ascendant by the time we'd reached Lincoln. Since then, I've had the full flood from my nose of murky ponds of greenish phlegm. Today, this same phlegm is forming a semi occluding value around the top of my wind pipe, which has kept me awake coughing most of the night and during the day. I've been coughing so much all the muscles in my torso ache every time they erupt into the air from my throat. This is clearing up, but slowly. In recent years since Covid, its been more typical for me to have a very persistent viral chest cold. Which are harder to treat by virtue of them not being a true cold. This is the first really old fashioned cold I've had in a long time, and my god I don't remember producing such vast quantities of slimy goop from and orifice before.

Sunday, January 05, 2025

WATCHED - The Listeners


Claire (Rebbeca Hall) is a teacher, she's married with a teenage daughter. Her life appears to be well organised, content and enjoyable. She starts to be aware of a background hum that is persistent and distracting. No one else she knows appears to hear it. She has a lot of tests to try to ascertain what is causing this, yet nothing appears to fit the bill. Believing there is something psychologically wrong with her, her previously stable life begins to start spiraling out of control. Then one of her pupils reveals to her that he hears it too, and has found a group of folk all having the same experience


The Listeners, manages to navigate some pretty tricky subject matter, like teacher pupil relationships, without you losing sympathy with its central characters. As the story progresses it cleverly wrong foots your expectations where its taking you. The way the group gathers together because they all hear 'the hum' moves from providing support, to counselling, to spiritual guidance, eventually forming into an independent self supporting 'Family', separated off from the outside world, was very credibly handled.  Providing an almost textbook example of how a 'cult' could form around a shared experience.

Over its four episodes it subtly cranks up the stakes. It did appear to lose its grasp on how to conclude the story, how open ended did they want it to be? Is Claire over it, or merely pretending she was? Was 'the hum' a spiritual thing or just a geophysical phenomena? The ending felt a bit fractured and wavering until finally it settled on a surprise twist.  All in all a very satisfying well written series.

CARROT REVIEW - 6/8




Currently available to stream on BBC I Player.

WORDS WRITTEN AT THE POINT OF GRATITUDE - No 2



This one is a longish edited entry from a recent gratitude journal. This came out in one extemporaneous flow.

" You know I would say today I'm feeling gratitude for my life and experiences. Looking back at the whole cornucopia of it. Its full of my interests, doubts, successes and mistakes, the opportunities taken and missed. It's all a bit of an exotic melange. One I would not have missed for the world. I'm grateful for it all.

Any human life, according to Buddhism, is 'a precious opportunity'** And this morning I'm feeling the fragile delicate nature of that opportunity. The only coda I could put at the end of that would be gratitude - for everyone I've ever met and had contact with - have loved and fallen in love with - have worked or crossed swords with - have exchanged ideas with - have worked creatively with - have appreciated, idolised and been a huge fan of - if only for five minutes - the toys both childhood and adult I've enjoyed playing with - the hearts I've broken - the hearts I've lifted - the one's I've let down and the one's I've made proud - the one's I've admired closely or from afar - the rush of my enthusiasms - the chasing of wild dreams - the despair of the last bus home after a hopeless evening - the tender ending of an affair - all the learning and the seeking for knowledge - and through it all a sense for the history of it all - of past lives lived - the complex inheritance of our humanity - these can only instill a sense of gratitude.

This morning I am sensitive and emotional, to the enormity of what I've written this floods me with feelings of love for it all, and not wanting to let go of one moment of it. To hold life to my chest tightly like a bunch of bright fragrant flowers. Simultaneously knowing that flowers fade and my memories die with me. And though I do not fully understand why, that forgetting, that fading away is a good thing. Nothing is permanent in this life, it is changeable and fickle, yet that is what makes it also unpredictable and offers up surprises, happiness and joy, in unequal measures. That it's something to feel grateful for, that nothing lingers for long, whether good or bad. Whatever I do, I should never become indifferent to it. Never stop trying to be better at riding the roller coaster."


** Human life is 'a precious opportunity' because through it you can wake up, be enlightened to what the 13th century Zen monk Dogen called 'the dream within a dream'.